Because she was trying to kill me…
Trying to rob my destiny…
To steal all my joy…
If she had it her way I think she would destroy everyone and everything….
She’s been there inside me….
All this time hiding…
Since around 1983…
I used to feel bad for her…
I tried to comfort her…
Tried to soothe her….
Hold her…
Dry her eyes…
Tuck her in bed…
Tell her to close her eyes and go to sleep until she was quiet…
I didn’t know until tonight that she was a serpent…
A little snake…
A parasite sucking all the life out of me….
Why?
Because psychology…
Because “inner child” therapy…
Because I thought I was doing the right thing…
But little did I know it was a demon I was cuddling….
A devil masquerading…
A four-year-old manifestation…
With bouncing blonde curls…
Blue eyes that shined…
Picture-perfect and ready to win the next beauty pageant…
It felt good to put a bullet in her head…
Just like my little brother did….
I hope my Father forgave him…
He knows everything that happened…
His word even says He can have mercy on whosoever HE wants to…
And if that beautiful little hellion ever comes back to life I will shoot her again…
A double tap…
Just like that crazy movie Woody Harrelson was in…
Zombieland…
When I think about it like that it makes me laugh…
A four-year-old dead girl ain’t really that scary…
Not to me anyway…
Got me feeling like Milla Jovovich…
Playing Alice killing zombies…
With evil resident…
Warrior status…
Maybe that’s why Isaiah said this in verse 49:26…
“I will feed your enemies with their own flesh. They will be drunk with rivers of their own blood. All the world will know that I, the LORD, am your Savior and your Redeemer, the Mighty One of Israel.”
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